YESTERDAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF MY IB EXAMS
I ran out of school like this because I was THAT excited. IM DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL FOREVER
I DONT HAVE OFFICIAL SCHOOL-ING ANYMORE.
I DONT HAVE TO WAKE UP AT 5 IN THE MORNING ANYMORE AND I CAN SLEEP WHENEVER
MY SUMMER HAS OFFICIALLY STARTED AND I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT ANYTIME I WANT. If you haven’t noticed, THIS IS REALLY EXCITING AND IM SO EUPHORIC
Too great for life. Adios IB, you won’t be missed. Yea no, I’m not going to miss pulling all nighters or stressing out for the Maths IA (Internal Assessment) or trying to work out what exactly constitutes as a KI (Knowledge Issue) or worrying about the ridiculously low word count for the EE (Extended Essay). Goooodbye sucker. See you never
Except part of me is scared and realises this can only have a bittersweet ending. I’m so glad school’s out and I’m done with IB, done with high school. but what about the future? I know I know, I am eagerly anticipating the future and see what it brings me, or what I manage to do with it, but it means I need to leave what I know as home. This school has been my safe haven for the past 8 years. I know this school inside and out, I know every teeny weeny little detail about this school. There’s something so familiar and comforting about walking in the hallways and corridors and classrooms that you’ve walked through an infinite number of times. All this is going to have to change. I guess I’m not exactly going to miss the school as much, but I’m going to miss what it meant to me. I’m going to miss my group of best friends that I love to the end of the universe because they’re the best people I ever know, I’m going to miss the teachers because even though some of them are terrible, the rest are brilliant (which sucks you know, because you can’t really be friends with teachers. I would if I could).
Some part of me doesn’t want this to end. There’s a familiarity in all this that makes me terrified to leave and move on. The plethora of what if questions semi scare me. I’m going to need to say goodbye to all these beautiful people I know, people I’m so glad to have in my life and wouldn’t trade for anything in the world. It’s a euphemism when I say I’m going to miss everyone so incredibly much.
On to the future now, but I don’t really know what that means anymore. There are moments I’m so sure in what I want and what I want to do, yet there are flirting moments when I suddenly realise the enormity of everything and start panicking. Then again, Albert Einstein did once say “I never think of the future – it comes soon enough”. And I realise that I do live by that line, I generally don’t think of the future very much because I know whatever it is, I’ll be okay.
I’ll be great.
The future will be more than okay.
Life’s brilliant.
I hope you’re having an amazing day!
Jin x
P.S. I’ll post about my post-exam details in a bit, I need to go out now
Question of the Day: What aspect of the future worries you the most?
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